FROM CHANDA
Sitting in Honolulu with the ocean in front of me, mountains behind me (Diamond Head) I am caught literally between a rock and a...well I wouldn't consider the ocean to be a hard place, but it makes it pretty hard to escape. The beautiful condo we are sitting in holds us, the view almost too much to handle, my knees give out every single time I walk out onto the balcony. Just a friend's place. Wow, I have a friend who vacations here. I have a friend who lives abundance. I am so aware and so grateful today of how this is showing up in my life. A wonderful home, family, amazing friends, a booming business, support all around and adventure galore. And I'm doing it with grace and ease. Be careful what you ask for, yes?
The feelings I'm having are overwhelming. This space, this island, will hold me for as long as I need to really let in the miracle of abundance all around me. I stop and take notice, I see it all over my life. What a way to go, you know? Manifesting miracles the way God intended - surrounded by the most incredible acts of God, Source, Universe, You, Me, We, Us...I can hear the wind saying "you made it." I am a part of creating this place, this experience. I take a moment to be still and listen. Everything is magnified. The senses are incredibly heightened here, you cannot hide from anything. Why not be in earth's majestic wonderment and be so unbelievably tuned in that God appears everywhere so obvious one doesn't even need to take time to "tune-in." You can't help but be plugged in here, all the time, everywhere you go. The inspiration just flows. Much as it did in Portland, but this is really different. So it makes me question: with Troy and I in such a sensory field, can we really afford NOT to be hanging out here? No wonder "our friend Wayne" lives in Hawaii (Wayne Dyer for those of you who aren't in A Course in Miracles Group in Fargo). Today I am healthy, vibrant, sun drenched, filled with peace, light and energy pouring in with each moment. The work just flows, insights coming at every turn and beat. The heat drives me to the water, the energy drives me to the mountain.
I took it as a great sign that at 4 p.m. this afternoon I no longer knew what day or time it was. I had to ask.
The waves now are thundering and pounding the side of the condo complex we are staying in. It reminds me full power is ours. The waves wake us up, beckoning to the vastness that is...everything. The vastness of what's available, no limitations...ever. The building holds me. Steady. Still. Strong. Until I'm ready to feel my power, and own up the fullness of what life has to offer. But it's more than just about the material things. I'm beginning to see that now. It's about connecting to the core essence of the earth, the universe, of myself. Accessing that space is like heaven to me, and it brings forth whatever I need, want, desire or wish for myself, my family, for mankind. The ocean has absolutely no limitations. Ever. I feel a mutual respect coming at me in those gigantic waves lapping the shore. At first it feels like a mere handshake, or a pat on the back. After awhile I'm sure I feel the waves caressing my soul. That's connection. I want to be the ocean for the rest of the world. Larger than life, no limitations, gentle yet strong when necessary, and of course vast. I want to show the world the ocean in themselves and what's available from that connecting place where everything and anything is created. In the strength of this body of water I'm reminded of how close I've come at times to being swallowed up by it. By myself, actually (isn't it all one anyway?) At times I became really good at allowing myself to get lost at sea. Not anymore.
I said goodbye to my 33rd year on Wednesday. My Jesus year. I grieved. It was the best year of my life. Today I sit on the balcony of a condo in Hawaii overlooking the magnificence of life. Not a bad way to start year number 34, eh?
Oh, yeah, about that mountain...the juxtaposition of the two incredible miracles ocean and mountain is really quite overpowering at times. Diamond Head stands there as if to say to the ocean "I'm right here always, to support you, to hold you right where you are and to guide you back in case you lose your way." People climb that mountain everyday to see the beauty all around. It's the ocean's biggest promoter. That's what my husband Troy is to me. Someone who is my biggest promoter, stands so strong and helps me find my way back when I lose my way. Thanks, Troy. You are my mountain.
